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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

I hate when I shout

I am writing this with a very bad feeling about myself.I yelled at my little daughter,she cried and went to bed and I can still hear her taking those deep breaths on the monitor,the ones that last much after they stop crying.I yell and the very next second feel terrible about it.Only wish I could hold off just before I am about to loose it and control myself.It happens sometimes,but I catch myself yelling at her once in a while and I HATE myself later.

She had a fun day playing with her second cousin and then spent the evening with her neighbor playmate who is her age.She was very sleepy when I took her upstairs to bed.She's been very unhappy about diaper changes lately and it is a big challenge to change her,especially at night before going to bed.So I was prepared with things to entertain her,and tried to distract her with things which usually would catch her attention,but not tonight.She had a little diaper rash to begin with and I tried hard to sweet talk her while changing and she would not let me do it.Then I yelled,she started to cry and I yelled more and she cried more and more.The work was done,she drank milk while trying to console herself,and dozed off in a few minutes.In the mean time,I almost had tears in my eyes,the poor baby had a diaper rash and was so sleepy and all she wanted was not to be changed.

Hmmm,its all part and parcel of motherhood,raising a child,trying to be a good parent........will feel better once I hug and kiss her in the morning.Waiting to see the cute smile on my darling's face tomorrow.She wakes up every morning by saying "amma" and "appa":-)what more do I want to hear first thing in the morning!

12 comments:

Sunita Venkatachalam said...

You and yell? I can't imagine ! If you yell, imagine what I do !

dame's diary said...

Just two days ago, I posted a similar blog:((

Don't worry.You are not alone! :)

Anonymous said...

awww...god paavam poor momma and poor baby. Am sure u amply made up the next morning am I right?

Miss D Mom(MDM) said...

Yup,I did...how could I not,after seeing that little face with a cute smile,hands up in the air to be picked up:-)

Miss D Mom(MDM) said...

RV:Thanks for the comment,the last comment was in response to yours.I read a few of your posts,you write well.

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Momo w said...

You know what? i cry while i'm reading this, i do the same thing too, sometime i spank her coz she never let me change her diaper, and when she eat, she play with her food, she spit the food, and sometimes i make 3 different food for her breakie, and see which food she will eat, but she do the same thing, so i start YELL & SPANK her hand, i always regret what i have done, and and i'm so unhappy and it's so depressing...
all i want her to do is just be eat.
She's just 10 month old baby, she can walk and call Mommy & Daddy.
I dont know how to control myself from Yell & Spank her.

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